What's wrong.. :/

Sometimes all this seems so awkward.. so meaningless.. so very disappointing.. Its like talking to myself with none to even hear out.. I dunno what am i doin.. i dunno why doing the things I'm doin.. I thought if i just went on doing stuffs that doesn't concern anymore even that.. maybe everybody'll forgive me and evrything 'll be set to ryt.. everything else 'll fall in its place and there won't be anythin to worry bout.. guess m wrong there too.. Man, I'm at the verge of this mental breakdown and i dunno how to handle it even..

I dunno why's it happening. If only knew the reason for it.. I'm doin stuffs that i wanted to do more likely during this puja break.. that's ryt.. It's happening during durga puja n that's even more disheartening to me :(

That's my dad at some pandal in Durgapur :)

There's my mom n pisi n cousin(Lita) at some pandal in Durgapur

I went out to Durgapur..

The Marconi pandal of Durgapur which really got grasp of artwork here :)

 met ol' cousins Nil and jeet da.. had nice follow through down the line  then burnpur and then asansol.. and then back dhanbad.. waiting out in harna..

That's the harna bagan colony pandal

 meeting ol' friends. childhood friends, Sobhit and Ravi makes me happy to share stories and memories with em.. It's cool hanging out with them :) but still somehow it doesn't feel ryt.. I'm watching prison break(actually completed it), and How I Met Your Mother like stuffs and laughin out. Eating out golgappas n ice creams and cold drinks on a roll.. Dad's letting spend money without questioning.. and yet, something deoens't feel ryt. It's biting me so hard to know that i dunno what's wrong in me :/ I dunno if it's someone M missing or something but damn its making  me soo irritated.. and i can;t even define the feeling of how it feels :(

I decided on going out today again with hanging around in hirapur only with arnab n all.. But still.. somehow somewhere I'm worn down.. If only someone can return me back my excited all along face. if only somewhere to rescue me out of this breakdown. if only could someone else understand me completely and let it out the correct solution. if only someone just be with me.. and hear out what's wrong with me.....

Somethin Missin..

Yea.. Somethin was defiantly missing with my theory and architecture. and those are that i totally ignored the facts of paging and all from it. Damn me. How can I even forget that. Anyways, I'll get back to it to as soon as i figure out a way to add into it and that's the good news. :)
My internals got over today. Not too good cause i didn't study for it at all :P and the stuffs studied didn't came :p So it's like a break for me from rest stuffs and nothin else. Now that it's over, my friends are goin back their homes. I got a reservation on 13th so can't even move till then :P As it got over, I went out with friends and hung around this town and only to return room and find some really undesirable attitude from my roommate for something i didn't even mean to happen. He realizes sooner the better.
Anyways, that's not even the biggest problem in my life to consider about. More complicated stuffs lie around while I speak of like stuffs that I can't even blog about :P Family censored :P lolz

I'll get back now when i get any breakthrough new idea about my data security architecture :)

Stuck on..

Got stuck on the C2DSM model. In here I doubt on the existence of it over large no of different cases. I doubt if it fails at some point. Though didn't find one yet. Got today off from college ( luckily :P ). Actually I was working on any alternations if it can be done with the use of linked-list, as i used em.. But then, that's according to my model of the working architecture :P Might not be correct. But i can't figure out any further with my current knowledge. All i can fix in is the use of 8085 architecture in addition to this. Though it's like using some ancient technology in something latest :P So, I dropped that idea and now thinking of somethin new. It might just strike me off while I'm roaming around in siliguri streets tomorrow :P

Today, though very amazingly, my net's working like it used to like forever ago :P lolz.. Our college's placement has started and the seniors really look in bad shape as CTS took off a very limited no :/ Wonder what'll happen in our time :P As in now.. I'm still stuck with the decision on taking Gate or Cat entrances after college for higher studies :/ Most of my friends decided already :p n working for it.. Instead I'm lingering around with these projects and all.. I dunno where they'll take me to.. but as in now.. I see knowledge helps you out wherever you're :D