What's wrong.. :/

Sometimes all this seems so awkward.. so meaningless.. so very disappointing.. Its like talking to myself with none to even hear out.. I dunno what am i doin.. i dunno why doing the things I'm doin.. I thought if i just went on doing stuffs that doesn't concern anymore even that.. maybe everybody'll forgive me and evrything 'll be set to ryt.. everything else 'll fall in its place and there won't be anythin to worry bout.. guess m wrong there too.. Man, I'm at the verge of this mental breakdown and i dunno how to handle it even..

I dunno why's it happening. If only knew the reason for it.. I'm doin stuffs that i wanted to do more likely during this puja break.. that's ryt.. It's happening during durga puja n that's even more disheartening to me :(

That's my dad at some pandal in Durgapur :)

There's my mom n pisi n cousin(Lita) at some pandal in Durgapur

I went out to Durgapur..

The Marconi pandal of Durgapur which really got grasp of artwork here :)

 met ol' cousins Nil and jeet da.. had nice follow through down the line  then burnpur and then asansol.. and then back dhanbad.. waiting out in harna..

That's the harna bagan colony pandal

 meeting ol' friends. childhood friends, Sobhit and Ravi makes me happy to share stories and memories with em.. It's cool hanging out with them :) but still somehow it doesn't feel ryt.. I'm watching prison break(actually completed it), and How I Met Your Mother like stuffs and laughin out. Eating out golgappas n ice creams and cold drinks on a roll.. Dad's letting spend money without questioning.. and yet, something deoens't feel ryt. It's biting me so hard to know that i dunno what's wrong in me :/ I dunno if it's someone M missing or something but damn its making  me soo irritated.. and i can;t even define the feeling of how it feels :(

I decided on going out today again with hanging around in hirapur only with arnab n all.. But still.. somehow somewhere I'm worn down.. If only someone can return me back my excited all along face. if only somewhere to rescue me out of this breakdown. if only could someone else understand me completely and let it out the correct solution. if only someone just be with me.. and hear out what's wrong with me.....